So. Heather and I were waiting for Mum to get home to bring us home Pizza... and in turned out that she had pulled up on the side of the road and was talking to a long lost friend. Or something. Well she was meant to be home an hour and ago at that point and i was worried.. but obviously she is ok. Anyway, Heather and I had been starving and waiting for that PIZZA that would never come... we checked the cupboards and there is nothing really to cook... so I just ordered pizza online!! :D! How cool is that?? And they'll be here in 20mins. So exciting because I am so hungry and I don't really want to eat toast. :D. I don't think I'll be going to that movie thing tomorrow now, because i just spent my money on pizza XD. mmhm. Weeee so now I wait for my pizzas. Can't wait to eat them.

Eeeek drama tomorrow. I should probably study.... o.0

Well today I wrote a song. On the .. piano! Yes, i know. The piano. I didn't realise i could play that well anymore but i have written a song on the piano and yeah! So happy! It's a bit of an emotional love song haha. Well more like a love song.. I don't really know how i wrote it.. but I sung it for Heather then for Mum, Oliver and Heather and they said that they really liked it and that I had a sweet voice. (Not sweet as in good, but sweet as in the type of voice...) I guess it feels like a personal song, and it was really great to perform it (even though its hard o.0). But when i'm singing and playing I just feel like its coming out from my heart.. i don't know how to explain it, but it's a beautiful experience.

Anyway that all i really wanted to say! I think it's amazing how God can use you to express beautiful things that show his love. :)

I can't even explain the freedom i feel right now... after exams.. I have one left! Yeserday, i did this: (as said in msn form..)

"Slept in till 9, had breakfast watched the end of so you think you can dance, a tgyh episode, i had a shower, then i tried doing contempary dance (it was a lol moment) i got inspired and did some work on a play, dusted and vacuumed the house, cleaned the kitchen, made cupcakes, had a tea party with katie and my sister, talked to mimi on the phone! AND sorted out the tupperware!!"

How eventful! It was great... Especially the tea party :D (s). I'll put photos of the cupcakes up soon.

In other news, lol Alex might be doing dance classes with me! I'm SOOO Excited!!!!! :D:D!!! Probably ballroom dancing. :D:D:D:D. Sooo much fun.. and soooo exciting. YAY. Hahaha hopefully he'll come along with me.. it will be fn with him because he can actually stay in time AND i won't have to dance with scary old guys who are trying be cool. Lol.

Anyway i am going to have a shower... hope you are all well!

Pigeons are really dirty, you know. And diseased. They hang around garbage and essentially that's what they turn into. Garbage. I had my biology prelim today.. i went ok! From biology we have learnt that organisms adapt to their environment.. and only some survive, hence the survival of the fittest. On a philosophical sense, using those pigeons as an example, what happens when we hang around different environments? Do we adapt or change to suit the environment or do we still remain ourselves? Does that environment determine who we are? Nature vs. nurture debate. I've noticed when i hang around different people I can be different but i think that is just various sides to my personality. Or it may be because i am adapting to my environment- to better accommodate the needs/feelings of myself and the other person. What do think?

On a lighter note, thank you to Belinda and Serena :D. For the maths 'study' time. Unfortunately we are not real men because we can't drink the man solo, but we sure can study!! :P

Goodluck with all your prelims :D!

I've had this song stuck in my head.. i love the strings in this song...

LOL well i tried to copy the lyrics here but they wouldn't copy properly. It was Supreme by Robbie Williams. XD

Prelims!!!!!!!! Yes, they have started. WOW. English was good and ancient.. hmm wasn't that great.. but it was worded REALLY badly. My teacher said he was going to mark it leniently.. so that's goood.. i really need to study BIOLOGY.. and MATHS... and... ENGLISH EXTENSION and S&C. I swear.. thursday will be painful. 4 essays. Well 3 essays, one speech. o.0. Do. do do . do do dododododooo. I've had semi-awkward moments today. BUt lol, rather funny though. Ok well i've wasted enough time.. i'm off to do biology!!! (prelims are making me go insane!!!! but on the plus side. my mum said i can use a downstairs room for a study!! YAY!)

The end of year 11 has come. Prelims start- monday. Year 12 starts- next term. I swear the last week and a bit even the smallest things have been getting to me. O.0. And then suddenly I switch from this crazy stressed mood to a really crazy mood.!! STress! Change! OH! SPeaking of Change i must do english. Goodluck all!

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Random lyric. (in title). From ' Standing in the way of Control' by The Gossip. Or Gossip, I'm not sure. I really like this song.

ok, here we go. OMGOSH PRELIMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND OMGOSH DRAMA PERFORMANCE AND GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :D.

Australian Idol. Wow. I love all of them.. well most of them. And the really cool guy that sang Coldplay! And the guy who did a version of JT's Cry me a river! A wonderful arrangement!

My Mum is leaving for Adelaide tomorrow. She's talking at this medical conference... So my Dad is coming up to look after us. Lol i'm going to be non existant this week because of me studying for exams. :D. oooomgosh prelimsssssssss.........

Just meet the outcomes. :D. weeeee....

I was thinking about the saying 'revenge is a dish best served cold'. I'm not really the type of person who takes reenge on anything really. I might doing something silly with my sister (haha) but nothing that serious or 'cold'. The thing that strikes me is when I watch other people's behavious generally, and i (yes i watch people and over analyse every single thing they do, and contribute that to their personality etc, its just something i do :P) see that they are acting out of revenge i sometimes don't understand why. Or even when ilook at what someone is doing, i think about the motive behind it, whether it be good or a bad thing. I love studying other people (and unlike a few years ago) lol i don't cast judgements from my high almighty throne. I use what i observe to explain the person and to get a better understanding of who they are. Which i think is a great thing. Like body language! Oh, the wonders of body language! And tone of voice! These two things unlock nearly everything in a person and what they are saying, and what they are really trying to say. Or what their real intenions are. And sometimes, you just don't want to know. But i always look too deeply. Try to understand. Understand, i'm not sure what. But just to understand... and sometimes i don't like what i find.

I must sleep. Goodnight.

Oh, before I go- MIMI! LOL we have silver hairspray ... yay.! and i swear, when i've finished this HSC- i'm going to go get a boyfriend or something. My love life is dead o.0. Still got your list Mimi? mwahaha. Look out. (p.s. i hope you can pick up sarcasm!!!!!!!!!!!)

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Just got back from babysitting across the road. We made cupcakes :D. And, I started reading Freud's 'Interpretation of Dreams'. It's so interesting. I'm really tired, but yeah i really want to dream tonight so i can interpret a dream with the new stuff i've learnt. I think i m ight buy that book. Start a collection. g'nite.

LOL!!!!

That is all I wanted to say.

I would like to say that I am in fact, crazy. I know it didn't take you much time to realise this, but for me, this self realisation comes as a shock. I guess today I was just feeling a bit emotional... no, not emo .. but emotional. :D. Ashleigh's hair is so cool. And it was Elizabeth's birthday today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Yay, another one is 17. Soon we will take over the world..
I guess i find some things a bit difficult at times.
Randomly, i was thinking about the saying 'true blue' and you know when you really get to know someone you see who they really are and what they are like? I wonder what i'm seen as.. like what people think of me when they really know me. I'd love to hear someone's version of trying to explain me. Haha. Actually, it would be a bit weird.. but still it would be very interesting. Except lol i'd rather it someone that i actually trust, not just a random 'your parents are divorce therefore you are destined to be an emo'. o.0. That's definitely not true.
Sorry its just me rambling on and on and on. I'll go do some maths. XD.
(i'm sooo sleepy. stupid ancestral platypus.......)

"...I looked through
the wall at my
father’s garden
It was beautiful
So beautiful

I swung from the moon
in my father’s garden
It was beautiful
So beautiful..."

- Matt Tonks, 'My hands (feel like someone elses)

I love Matt Tonks. Find him here.

WOW!! My Mum has been like key noted!!

http://www.plevin.com.au/aaddm2007/speakers.htm

Haha she forgot to write her name with her degrees at the end of it, so it looks pretty funny. It's quite amazing- they are all professors and Dr's whilst she's completed her masters. wee. SO excited for you/proud of you Mum! Haha that's a pretty old photo of her :P How funny. Yay for my mum!!!!

Focussssssssss on biology Emily. Focussssssssss.....