i swear, if i don't stop spinning round in circles soon I'll go crazy. and everytime i seem to bring my self back to this point, this frame of mind. Emily, do not drink when you are not feeling great.  i'm being so vague but yet i need to be, because i can't be specific.  because i don't know what the specifics are in general.  i just want to be at uni. i'm over the hsc.. and i don't have long to go, and i'm having a blast... but i could of been in a psych 101 lecture. i just want to be able to do things and not worry about my mental health or whatever. And what really annoys me is that the few people i really get on with and connect with on all levels... i just seem to not ... i don't even know how to explain it!  There's some people you just connect with, and its on all different types of levels.  With some people i connect on one or two levels ranging up to all levels. i hope this makes sense.  Levels may be spirituality, personality, a certain commonality or whatever.  and i guess i'm finding it weird.... i don't know how to explain all of this or what all this is about, because i hardly know. Oh subconscious, speak to me! but with some people its just there, you can feel it, like a sixth sense...  its like all wired up in the right way... and i think i've got three people in my life like that. but now as i'm meeting new people, it makes me miss those connections.. i don't know how to explain this. but hey... what are 8:47pm rambles for?