Last night.. i'll be honest. I haven't felt like i did then for a long time. And what i hate, is that the medication induces these states, and then i need to take another type to fix it. When will this stop? I wrote this about last night.

Pop a pill
Take the pain away
You're lost inside your head
Again.
Release wrapped
In tin foil
Shaking hands
Reluctant mnd
To finish waht
The meds started.

Electricity running through my brain
Faster
Round and round it goes
Where it stops
Only I know

But hush,
Here comes this ectasy
Of release
Relief
Retardation of thoughts
To relax
Restrain
The mind that does not know itself.

The power is off
All systems down
Normality achieved
Though secure, sedated and a secret
My heart
Screams
Where is my mind?