This week has been really great so far! Catching up with friends and sharing the love of portugese chicken burgers = good times. I'm a bit nervous though at the moment because i've semi asked someone out... It's still only a semi thing, but still, normally I ignore the other peorson completely and run the other way. But i don't see them all the time, so if it doesn't do anything it'll be fine...Anyway, i'm sure it will be fun whatever happens!

So yeah my phone cap runs out today (finally!) so tomorrow i'll be free... my computer is still dead, so i'm writing this at tafe. Talking of tafe, i have an assessment due tomorrow. Should get cracking on that but instead i'm exploring the realms of the internet. Always fun...

Ok well enough of my rambles I must go and do something that isn't on blogger- as in work. I feel guilty using a tafe computer to do this... i should use it for work :P! byebye blog!

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P.s. My mum stole my sister's peripherals from her computer. I think it runs in the family.... (Heather's computer is now situated in the kitchen so I can use it but mainly so there is a time limit on the internet.) I love that word, peripherals. So a note to my mum and sister: STOP STEALING MY PERIPHERALS!
It's like the word Bric-a-brac. Say it really quickly. Spit it out! I love that word-bricabrac! bricabac bricabrac bricabac......

Ok i've given up on the 'i'm going to finish an assessment now before i go to modern" thinking, because i don't think that is going to work. I keep falling asleep in modern though.... o.0 But I am not the only one! Jo does as well, she admitted it first.

Alright, now I AM LEAVING this website, as i must go to class. Bricabac!

It appears my blogs have turned into a few words here and there. Wow.

Today was really difficult. I got told that I was meant to be absent and was sent home. I have an estimate for my english HSC... but it feels so weird... It used to be my pride and joy... my best subject. My medication is going up again after my bio exam because apparently my cognitive skills haven't come back- hence my inability to beable to process essays. But i am so much better than I was this time last year. I'm aware of everything now and I know how to keep everything under control... well I know what to do and what not to do.

This time last year I was in denial about everything that ever hit me, running on anxiety and trying to do everything for everyone else but myself. I think now though I'm comfortable with accepting my little issues etc because everyone is not perfect. I was trying to be perfect!!

Don't mind me blog, just trying to make myself feel better.

Going back to school though has been really strange... I feel like there's this big age gap or maturity gap. They're all so excited about their HSC and have got it all planned out... oh, the naivety!! It reminds me of how we all were... "I can't believe we're in year 12!! " etc.

In some aspects I feel like I've failed. In others I haven't.. depends on what the marking guidlines are.... i guess i'm not the perfect-average-student-who-does-everything-and-loves-everyone kinda girl anymore. I'm Emily, taking each day as it comes... and focusing on developing myself and my mind, not 100%'s. And until this has all past, i'm going to have to accept that......

No idea where this was going. Anyway I am rather sleepy, althoughI did sleep four hours today already...goodnight xo.

Just thought i'd make an announcement and say that I am relatively back to normal now.... and that last week, I truly did loose my sanity. I've always joked about it, but I think I seriously lost it. Anyway, I'm back, so hello blog and the world wide web, and now I must finish an essay.

Oh Gosh. In the last 24 hours I have consumed soo much food. Good food, but i can feel it.. i'm going to go do some amazing exercise tomorrow before i die of a heart attack. Ok, that's being a bit over dramatic. Betty cooked an AMAZING vanilla souffle, and creme caramel, i've had belgian chocolate, i made a self saucing chocolate pudding...

Sunday Nights = tv. 6:30- GLADIATORS!! Best show ever!! 7:30- final of so you think you can dance (stopped now!). Then.. GREYS @ 8:30. Except today i got a bit carried away.. i ate one whole microwavable popcorn bag to myself watching gladiators, then mum brought home McDonalds. I had a Big Mac. But now I feel sick!! Ate it too quickly.

No point really to this blog- only that food is glorious, but i need to balance it out with exercise :D. Keep reminding me to exercise!! School on Tuesday.. should be interesting.. Does anyone know if its week a or b?? ANyway... i'm going to go and try and not think about my stomach..

Dear Blog,

I am awfully sorry i have neglected you the last 13 days. Nearly two weeks without a post, from memory. How have you been feeling? Sad i suppose, since the only exciting thing that ever happens to you is me typing and publishing to you. How have I been?, i hear you inquire! Well thank you blog for asking, because i know I haven't talked to you in a while.

I've been alright. Lol, sometimes i get a bit like OMGOSH YEAR 12ISH, but othertimes i'm good. I miss some of the intimacy (no, not THAT type) that i had with some of my friends at the start of this year, but i suppose that's school for you. It's really amazing to see how I have grown as a person and of course how others have faced the challenge of taking on year 12. Everything at times moves so fast, that you take a breath and it's like- woah. A whole week has just gone by.

And that is all I am prepared to write tonight, my dearest blog. I am rather tired and I wish to catch the express bus to dreamland for the night.

From your always loving blogwriter. xox

Wow. Yes, i have created another blog. But i really like this, it's so cool!!! The layout and the whole vibe to it its really great. Well goodbye, as i have more important things to do at the moment. Couple of essays and a to do list that i really need to write. Bye!