Oh, how I marvel at the power of the unexpected. The power of words you don't want to hear, the words seething with irony- and the wonderful restraint I have placed on my hands from picking up the phone and screaming at my oh-so-clever-certain-relative.

The power of a letter... words that I can re read. My Mum took the letter off me. Said I shouldn't take the arrow. I've come really far, had heaps of positives this week... don't let this one thing throw me back.

Words, words, words! How you can build the highest mountains, explain the widest of all oceans, transport me into a bed of flowers blossoming in spring... and tear me down in an instant. I can tell now that I am definitely a writer- I over dramatise and let the words I love to write come back around and bite me.

But you know what? I am better than this. The decisions I have made have been my own choice. And if your not going to support MY choice and MY wellbeing, then I don't need or want to hear it. They don't know me- my head or what's been going on. I don't need to explain myself to 50 million people. And I don't have to freaking get advice from all these people who never put anything into my life in the first place, and then when something happens, BOOM they have a billion qualifications and know exactly what to do? HELLO? To the three people I am thinking of at the moment: YOU DIDN'T GO TO UNI FOR 7 YEARS! TWO OF YOU DIDN'T EVEN GO! YOU DIDN'T STUDY MEDICAL SCIENCE OR PSYCHOLOGY, SO GET OFF MY BACK! This is me and my choices. MY CHOICES. That's right MY CHOICES. You may have stuffed up your life, but I AM NOT GOING TO 'STUFF' UP MINE! By doing what I am doing is the best for me and my wellbeing. And if any of you three people even bothered to REALLY be apart of my life you would understand that!

*breathe*. My Mum and Steve, Heather, Ashleigh, Marlene, Kirril, Belinda, Alex, Mr. Martin, Ms Maggs- I have a (excuse the expression) Bloody Brilliant support network. I don't need ad-on's who are trying to change my mind.

Ok, I feel a lot better. Had to get it out of my system. :)