So, i sit here at 10:09pm on a Sunday night. And to tell you the truth i have no idea what's been going on lately. I'm kinda scared that i might be relapsing. I don't know. I really don't know. I guess its all about managing... and i guess i'm just on a tightrope... when i get off balance, i've just got to lean the other way. so i'll lean and hope for the best. I dunno i just felt really disjointed going out tonight... it's all in my head probably.. but it was great to catch up at insitu- hadn't been there in ages. Man, i really want to move out. End of the year here I come.... alright i should sleep. gnite.