I guess the question is, what am I trying to avoid? Why have I spent so much time in the city, out and about, and not at home? Because I am trying to avoid what's going on with my sister. Is that it? I want to run and hide away from the reality that life has screwed me and her up? I have no idea. I just wish I could do something for her. Hmm I dont know... It just annoys me that everything has to be so screwed up. I mean, I've feeling the best I have since I can remember... but to see the flip side of it... We all go through our own stuff. And at the moment she hates me, literally. But I love her. I don't understand it. Anyway more on this later. I need to cook dinner.